It seems a normal week but Im experiencing na mabigat ang pakiramdam ko. No, wala akong bagong sakit. Everything is well. Pero somethings wrong. I feel so empty.
Ive always been sick. Pero this "sickness" slash uneasiness and down feeling, alam na alam ko kung san ko yun nakuha.
Kapag I feel empty, or malungkot ako ng walang dahilan, may kulang saken. Kulang ako sa Diyos.
Absent ako sa Mass last week. Haaay. I dont know if it's guilt, dahil kasi naman 1 oras lang sa isang linggo ang pag-attend ng Mass, di ko pa nagawa. Siguro psychological na din, pero I really have to say my praises, hear the sermon, sing and pray together with others, yan yung dapat ko lagi magawa, kahit once a week.
So this Sunday, pumunta na ako sa "cure" ng uneasiness ko. And let me share ang homily sa Greenbelt last Sunday.
"...There's this man who always wanted to go to Italy. This is his ultimate goal. So all his life, he saved for money to live there. He also studied the language, the culture and everything about Italy.
Finally, the day came. He packed his things and get ready for the flight. He was so excited to see Italy, and finally eat an authentic Italian Pizza and Pasta.
Upon landing, the stewardess announced "Welcome to Holland!"
The man was surprised he said "No, I booked for Italy."
But he couldnt do a thing but to accept to live in Holland. He was so disappointed for he has done everything just to go in Italy.
Of course the man is dissapointed at first. But at the end he learned that there were no tulips, no windmills, and no rembrandts in Italy. There are really things you cannot see if you're too focused on your disappointments and what ifs. He now enjoys and appreciates Holland..."
Aspiring is good but appreciating what you have is better!
Now, what things do you appreciate most in your Holland?
Have a happy week everyone! >(^o^)<